Hello there kittens,
My name is Tanya. I am a 28 year old dedicated devotee of false lashes and red lipstick. Lover of fairy tales, myths, burlesque and drag. Old soul. Audacious and strong willed. Perpetually tempestuous. Half Scottish, half Irish.
Oh, and I have cancer.
So let’s start as we mean to go on – I am not defined by my diagnosis. Despite how unique it may be. Amongst many other things I am an artist. Owner of the most beautiful black cats named Tabitha and Bellatrix. Fond of a decent pint of Guinness and a good rugby match. I have synesthesia, can speak seven languages, hold a tune and read your palm. Intersectional feminist, liberal, lucid dreamer. Vegan baker, poisonous flowers aficionado, thalassic enthisiast.
Life is colourful and so is my language so reader discretion is advised.
SPOILER ALERT : I was recently diagnosed with atypical hyperplasia which was later confirmed as being endometrial endometriod adenocarcinoma (which is cancer for those of us who haven’t completed residency programs in obstetrics and gynecology). I am recovering from a laparoscopic radical hysterectomy and have undergone brachytherapy. I am trying to gather my thoughts and experiences on these issues for three main reasons.
- The past few months have been pretty devastating and I find writing especially therapeutic.
- There is a huge stigma surrounding these topics and more discussion is greatly needed. If my words can make a single person feel less alone or comforted, then I would be genuinely delighted – especially as there is so little support for women of my age.
- I am fucking sick of having to go through every fucking detail with every fucking person who finds out about my diagnosis. So this is a delightfully convenient way of keeping people updated without exhausting myself.
I am nothing if not candid. If you would rather not know the finer details of how I essentially gave birth to my own reproductive organs, I probably wouldn’t read on if I were you. But should you brave it – well, it has all been pretty tragic but I can be pretty funny.
If you are going through something similar, please do not hesitate to get in touch if you need a little support. All of my social media links can be found in the menu. I am more than happy to listen, support, encourage rants, answer questions – whatever will help you the most.
P.S At the close of “De rosis nascentibus,” a poem attributed to both Ausonius and Virgil, the phrase “collige, virgo, rosas” appears, meaning “gather, girl, the roses.” The expression urges the young woman to enjoy life and the freedom of youth before it passes – I hope this helps explain the title.
TL;DR – I have old lady cancer, I like to write about it but I’m occasionally hilarious.